New York State of Mind

Had another lunch date today and I think I may be starting to get her to like me again. I am doing everything I can and often I feel like I can't reach her. Like arrows that cannot penetrate the armor, and fall to the ground. It is almost surreal how it seems so much like starting over again. It would be easier with someone who didn't know me as well or have seen this "movie" before. All I can do is my best and continue to hope for the best.

I am missing New York of late. I think it may be time to return to the motherland and soak in some New York essence. It has been about 3 years since I've been back home. I miss the smells and energy and mass movement of the City. I think I need to get up there sometime soon to recharge my batteries.

As a side story my college roommate played "New York Sate of Mind" by Billy Joel on his CD player on endless repeat right before the holidays one year and ever since then it makes me think of home.

If not NY then I think I need to go somewhere, I need to travel somewhere new and explore some new things. I love travelling very much. It is awesome to take in new sights and sounds. This year I haven't been someplace new yet but I still have half a year left. Last year was my first trip to Colorado and it was fabulous... Oh wait, I do have a new place on the radar... Nashville, and I am heading there next week. Man, I can't believe I forgot about that one. That should be fun and interesting.

One more thing that I also miss is the touch of a partners skin. The simple touch that runs like electricity through you.

You can sense the summer starting around you in so many ways. The warmth and humidity. children getting excited, summer clothing, and warmer nights.

There is no finer beginning to a song than the first minute or so of "Bittersweet symphony" by the Verve. Every time I hear it I just stop what I am doing and listen, like right now.

I think the line "You are a slave to money, then you die" applies to so many people around you, it's sad but I am happy it does not apply to me.