Happy Friday !

" Always On Your Side "

Jackson Five - ABC

Eye of the Storm

So as I mentioned yesterday, I feel like I am (metaphorically speaking) in the eye of a storm right now in my life. Last night while running the skies turned deep navy blue and the air got real cool. A thunderstorm was brewing while I was mid-way away from home. I kept on running and had faith I'd get back before it down poured. While on the way I was struck with the beauty of the skies and the coolness of the air and the sense of the storm coming. So wonderful and I did make it home in time.

That was the upside of the night... here's the downside. As I was helping a friend load her car, the rain had slowed down. I looked over a noticed a very large portion of a huge tree branch lying across the roof of my car. I would say about a 14' long brand landed on the my car denting the roof in right behind the sun roof. I dragged it off and dragged it over to the curb (a very long way) and then checked out the damage.

So now I need to take the old car to a body shop to repair this act of god.

You win some you lose some.

Alone or not

Today started in a strange way as a small gnat flew into my right eye and that sucked. Later this evening as I went for a run another small bug flew into my other eye - I mean c'mon, seriously ? How can that happen two times one in each eye in the same damn day ?? how does that happen ? I mean what are the odds ?

I watched the end of "Up in the Air" tonight and it was a really good movie, very well written. The notion and philosophy of the main character (George Clooney) is very interesting. The notion that we are all alone and relationships are not really necessary. The main character states the people we have in our lives are baggage that weigh you down. I find it interesting because in some ways we are all alone, I agree with that notion - But - I do believe that true meaning in life comes from how we impact other people's lives in a positive way. So in my mind our relationships are critical to the footprints we leave in this world. It isn't left in what we do or what we create but out footprints are left in the people we touch.

Busy Friday

Tomorrow we head to Nashville. I am looking forward to getting out of town for a few days. It will be great to see a new place and also to spend time with friends. It should be a pretty few days according to the weather channel.

It's been a stormy evening tonight and the rain still beats on the skylights at this late hour.

It has been an extremely busy day getting ready for the trip, I am very tired, and have run out of gas - a rare occurrence for me. I need to start listening to my body.

Ramblings

I can honestly say that I do not have much to say. I might be out of words today.... nah, that's ridiculous, I am just thinking of other things. I am nearly finished reading a book that I have dragged out for so long that I want to finish it just for the sake of finishing it. To put it away. I am not letting myself do anything else until I finish, it is strangely motivating to me and I am excited to complete it. Why am I sharing that ? I have no idea.

I will say that I never had much of an opinion about Amy Winehouse until I listened to a few of her albums and man they are really good and I think she is very talented. I am impressed with her work. It doesn't hurt that she has a song called "F**k Me Pumps".

I plan on going for a run later this evening so I hope the heat backs off a little since today is a hot one. It is feeling like summer right now.

You know what would be fun ? to occasionally peek into some one's mind and see what they are thinking and see all their dark and deep desires. People are so guarded and it would be fun to see their mind at work. Those who are most proper would probably be the most entertaining. I bet it would shock most people what goes on in there. It would not shock me, at least I don't think it would. Now that would be a "super power" worth having.

Everything is everything.

Large Moon

Today was a really good day for several reasons. First of all the moon is full tonight and it is absolutely huge in the sky. It is unreal how the moon looks tonight, incredible. It shines and glows in a most amazing way.

So today I ended up giving in and calling her. I know I struggled with it and I know I talked myself out of it a few times but I am so glad I did. I am very glad I did. It was so wonderful to talk, even briefly, to her again. I am still feeling my way through all of this and today felt right. As always things feel right when I follow my heart. I had something important to say. I was so nervous today and boy oh boy does so much around me feels like starting over in so many ways. Starts are good. I like starts much more then goodbyes. Goodbyes bring me down.

I may not be making much sense tonight but sometimes life doesn't make sense. What is important is to make the best of the ride.

The moon and the clouds are swirling under the milky way tonight.

New York State of Mind

Had another lunch date today and I think I may be starting to get her to like me again. I am doing everything I can and often I feel like I can't reach her. Like arrows that cannot penetrate the armor, and fall to the ground. It is almost surreal how it seems so much like starting over again. It would be easier with someone who didn't know me as well or have seen this "movie" before. All I can do is my best and continue to hope for the best.

I am missing New York of late. I think it may be time to return to the motherland and soak in some New York essence. It has been about 3 years since I've been back home. I miss the smells and energy and mass movement of the City. I think I need to get up there sometime soon to recharge my batteries.

As a side story my college roommate played "New York Sate of Mind" by Billy Joel on his CD player on endless repeat right before the holidays one year and ever since then it makes me think of home.

If not NY then I think I need to go somewhere, I need to travel somewhere new and explore some new things. I love travelling very much. It is awesome to take in new sights and sounds. This year I haven't been someplace new yet but I still have half a year left. Last year was my first trip to Colorado and it was fabulous... Oh wait, I do have a new place on the radar... Nashville, and I am heading there next week. Man, I can't believe I forgot about that one. That should be fun and interesting.

One more thing that I also miss is the touch of a partners skin. The simple touch that runs like electricity through you.

You can sense the summer starting around you in so many ways. The warmth and humidity. children getting excited, summer clothing, and warmer nights.

There is no finer beginning to a song than the first minute or so of "Bittersweet symphony" by the Verve. Every time I hear it I just stop what I am doing and listen, like right now.

I think the line "You are a slave to money, then you die" applies to so many people around you, it's sad but I am happy it does not apply to me.

Weekend Wrap Up

Is there anything better than a hot cup of coffee and two Reece's Peanut Butter Cups ?

I think not.

The weekend was lovely and pretty jam packed. Friday afternoon was totally out of the normal routine. Everyone was around. Had a lunch date and went to the movies. Shrek 4 is well worth the admission price. It was very funny and the writers found a way to make it "fresh" it functions almost as a new story standing alone from the others. Even though he has now let himself go I still love me some "Puss in Boots" (old photo)...

Saturday I found myself in a Roller Rink and then an amusement center.. I tried to run but I could not get away ! Had a nice long walk for two between rain drops on Saturday. Things are still very strained but slowly being attempted to be mended.

Sunday was a day of "getting crap done", not fun but necessary. I did clean out my closet a little and threw away a few older shirts. I actually found a few new shirts that I had forgotten about so - score ! I went for a run on Sunday but it was so humid I felt like I was running on some alien planet where the air was too thick - I struggled and did the best I could. I am feeling pretty 'fit' these days and am looking forward to summer gear - not that I am going to throw on a thong or anything but I do wear swim trunks often... now what the hell can I do about my chest being too white ? .... maybe I'll go "Jersey Shore" and hit the tanning bed - nah, that's not my style and unfortunately neither is skin cancer... light skin isn't that bad is it ?

Last night my NY Mets defeated the NY Yankees to take the first subway series of the year and I am absolutely thrilled about that ! I hate the friggin' Yankees ! The game was on ESPN and life is good when that happens. Great way to cap off a lovely weekend. Plus the Empire State Building in NYC will brightly show off the Mets colors for the next two weeks - let's go Mets ! I promptly made a posting last night to all NY to show my excitement of the Mets triumph... I expect a lot of crap today - but who cares !

Today has been busy, started employee reviews for the spring today. I am juggling several things and hoping they stay in the air. Got my car back from the shop today and my wallet is lighter again.... but what can you do ? Happy to get rid of the "loaner" cause it had no radio - yes, no radio..... silent driving is not meant for me.

Everything is everything (I love that statement)